I love this photo of Tatyana. Here, she’s broken yet graceful, totally vulnerable with her scars showing, but still soft and serene. She has her eyes closed, facing forward, not in the blind acceptance of the future, but more the allowing of the light to shower her.
For years I have just maintained a photo blog. Almost every weekday, I share additional/uncensored versions of photos I share on my social media sites. I keep it simple because I am not a full-time photographer, I don’t need to do this, I just wanted to share and hone my hobby and passion and, most importantly, share the beauty and story of the subjects I get to honor of collaborating with. I have never been confident enough to share, in words, random thoughts in my brain and other daily musings. However, what have we got to lose?
I used to make resolutions. I’d do the January-back-to-the-gym dance almost yearly. This year, for the first time in a long time, my resolution is to just keep doing what I’ve been doing the past year or so. Keep saying ‘yes’ to things. Spend as much effort in having fun as doing well at work. Be less apologetic because…
I’m good enough, I’m smart enough and, gosh darn it, people like me.
Things have been far from perfect. A sometimes things have still been hard… most of the time quite lonely. But things are good. Really. Never have I been abandoned by my family and my true friends (even my so-so/new/note-quite-sure-how-personal-we-can-go friends have been amazing). I still want things to be amazing, but I will make more of an effort to just do things and be okay with okay.
So, yes, you will eventually be asked to listen to yet another podcast (that I will be launching in the near future). You will see my feeble attempts at filmmaking (mostly semi-naked things so you’ll enjoy them). You might even see attempts of me being in front of the camera pretending to know what I am talking about. You will read more of the things we have already discussed on chat or in person before. But I am trying and I am trying to have a little more fun.